Anyone who has had multiple conversations with me probably has heard me talk about wanting another baby. I have gone back and forth about having #4 for about 3+ years now (not my hubby though, he has been content with 3 since Tyson was born). There are times when I am 100% convinced that I HAVE to have another, and other times when I think I would be crazy to even entertain the idea (but, let it be known, if the decision was entirely up to me--not my hubby AND me--we would have 4 already). The bottom line is, I am really having a hard time leaving my "baby days" behind me. How do you move on? How do I know that when I'm 50, I won't completely regret not having more kids--and then it won't be an option? This is a hard one for me. I see all the reasons why not to have another, but yet it's still so hard to accept and move on!!
Anyways, there is a glimpse into what has been going on in my heart these past few months/years.
Me and baby Jordan 2001
(why the heck was I wearing overalls?!)
(why the heck was I wearing overalls?!)
Me and baby Kya February 2004
Me and Toddler Tyson 2007
(excuse my striped hair!!)
Me and Toddler Tyson 2007
7 comments:
Such a tough decision. All I can suggest is to pray about it so you can be at peace with your decision.
We've started our adoption paperwork and sometimes I think "are we crazy for doing this? LMS is 5 1/2 and pretty self-sufficient and if we adopt a baby, we're starting from the beginning all over". Then I remind myself that we've prayed about it and we feel like it's something we're supposed to do, and whatever ends up happening, it will all work out.
Good luck figuring it all out and being at peace with it.
You might regret not having one, but you will never regret having another. Prayer is definitely the key. Good luck! (;
i feel the same way. well not having another kid, but when to have our first. it's so hard to figure out if your feelings are an answer or not. all i gotta say is keeping praying about it. :)
Anita! So hard! I know you have struggled with this for awhile. It is such a hard choice. I know I am not in the same situation right now, but I understand the feeling of "how do I know when I am done?" I told Chad after having Carson that we were done....well when you pray for something, you really do get answers. I am well aware that I am not done (no, I am not pregnant). Keep your head up! You have three beautiful children!
The baby pictures you posted are all so adorable! If cuteness was the deciding factor, you'd definitely have to have another one :) I hope at some point you and Mike will both come to the same decision.
You know I am with you on this one. Scott told me if I want to we will try again. I have no idea what is right. Time for fasting and prayer!
One of my good friends was torn about having number four... she and her husband both prayed about it and after a few months of pondering/praying (because they wanted closure if they weren't having another), she had a blessing that basically said that there was a spirit waiting in heaven to be a part of their family that was so righteous that the adversary was tempting them to not have any more children. Needless to say, they now have a baby. :) My older sister and her hubby also were "sure" they were done having kids, but they went to the temple and prayed about it and guess what... there youngest will be four when baby number four arrives next May! Have you and Mike BOTH prayed about it at the temple? If you keep feeling unsure, I think that would give you the answer you need. *HUGS!* I know it's a hard decision and if you have another, he/she will be just as ADORABLE as your other three!! ;-)
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